God’s Tragic Story

Dia mengerti

Dia peduli

Persoalan yang sedang terjadi

Dia mengerti

Dia peduli

Persoalan yang kita alami

Namun satu yang dia minta,

agar kita percaya

Sampai mukjizat menjadi nyata

Translation:

He understands

He cares

What’s really goin on (in our life)

He understands

He cares

All things we’ve been through

Only one thing he asked,

Dat we believe

until miracle happens

It turns out dat I’m not patient enough to wait for any miracle.

Many times, as some-many people thought, dat God has never care enough. And the worst part is: He does, actually, understand. But He never even care. For me, it’s very cruel of him, indeed.

But wad if the song is true? Wad if he does, understand, and even more than that: HE DOES CARE??

Still, no matter how much he actually cares, we always thought dat he never does.

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I remember crying when sumone who’s very dear to me said dat I never care about him. But I actually did, care about him. More than he knew. And I thought he should have known dat. He should be mature enough to understand about diz.

I remember well enough how I feel exactly.

I instantly cried when he said dat. It pains me. So much, and it broke my heart.

What about God? Wouldn’t he be hurted, then? And if our wound is healed by God, who’ll heal his?

Twilight Nonsense Version

We all know Twilight, don’t we?

What if the story goes cmpletely different? That Bella reconsiders her relationship with Edward, and then she thinks that she needs someone who grows up with her, instead of someone who’s stuck in his age, like Edward.

As Edward loves her very much, I guess there’s a BIG chance that Edward would let her go to have what she wants and he’d respect her decision. So then, he’d make a sacrifice.

You know, just like Benjamin Button who left his wife and daughter because he loves them very much. He knew, instead of getting older, he’s actually getting

younger. And he sacrifices his feeling, his heart. He said to Kate once, that their daughter needs someone who could grow up with her (implicitly not him).

What if the story goes this way: Despise her deep love for Edward, she said to him, “I need someone who can grow up with me,” although she know that would hurt him very much. Would she ever be able to hurt Edward’s feeling? If so, then how it’s supposed to be called?

Selfishness?

Sounds like one.

Different Kind of Nonsense

I was wondering,

How could you be faithful, but at the same time, u’re also an unbeliever?

Could you be so loveable and yet, so full of hatred?

Could you enjoy your life, but also sick of it?

Could u think positively, and at the same time also think that everyone’s really sux?

Could you ask God to grant you more time on earth, but at the same time, you really want to throw it away?

Could you be so naive, but so full of bitterness?

Could you be so devoted and also become skeptic, too?

If we ever think about it, and realize, diz world is actually a drama stage. And each person holds a role for him/herself. The property used is only a mask. Director? God. Assistant? Satan (believe it or not, sorry). They let us choose, to wear the mask or not. Means you could show your true-self to the audience, or not, if you choose to wear the mask.

I’m being so skeptic right now. Somehow, my mood is so ruined right now. And I keep remembering Meja’s “All About the Money” ‘s line:

We find strange ways of showing them how much we really care

When in fact we just dun seem to care at all

You dun need to understand diz at all… Dat’s why I call it nonsense.