I believe in times like this, I’m not the only one. Some people are better at controlling it. Some people are worse off. Some people I know, are like a rock. They’re championing this and managed to ignore the anxiety. Or, even better, they’re defeating it. Unfortunately, that is just not me right now.
Although I admit I am mostly awkward with people I don’t know well, and especially in environments I haven’t warmed up to.
4 years of undergrad, 4+ years of full-time work (and being in front of classes and interpreting in panel discussions in front of hundreds of people), this is still happening.
…yes, I went all the way to Japan to become like this…