Wha’s In A STATUS????????

Once, quite long time ago, I changed my “Religious Belief” in facebook to “Atheist”. It took quite some time for some of my “church friends” to find it out and then protested me. Duh, I’ve done that quite long time ago! Aaaaaaaarrrrggghhhh!!! Sumhow I disagree with their protest which then asked me to changed my status back to “Christian” or their question like, “Are you really an atheist? Please change it back if it’s not true.” I completely understand why they were doing so (I used to be in their position, too, loooooooooooong time ago), but still, it quite irritated me. Well, it really pissed me off, actually.

So, I neither reply or change it, at first. But then, more protests come, so I think it’s better to change it a.s.a.p. It bugs me so much to see those protests and critics (it turns out that I’m not really open to critics, eh?).

Anyway, sharing my complaints were not my purpose of posting this. The real reason why I did change my religion belief to “atheist” is dat…

Well, I kinda being far from God these days. Not to say dat I used to be close with him, no. I dun think so. But, it was like… that’s another story to tell later on, but I’m being agnostic right now. I do still believe in him, but I wanna believe him in my own ways. I sick of all the rules, of being God’s good child, being too fanatic, being too freak of his commandments, and I’m tired of trying… If I look back, remembering the old days, when I used to be a good christian (as I thought so), I feel like being a fanatic and a freak. Dat may not be true. Besides, it’s others who see you anyway, not you.

I always thought that it’s never been easy being a christian. When I used to be a church activist, a friend once told me, “being a Christian is like being in an aquarium”, people will always notice whatever you’re doing. And not juz notice, they will always comment — critics, to be exact.

I’m sick of that already. Seriously. And I really dun wanna through those anymore. So, I let myself control me. Whole body and mind (no more praying, “Let your will be done.” It will be just, “Let it be,” or, “I will try doing what I want. If God mind it, he can stop me.”) It sounds really bad, huh? Well, who says I’m a good kid anyway?

I started to abandon all those christian principles behind and being me. And so I thought that, it’s not worth it to tell everybody I’m a christian but never do anything as most christian will do. Let’s just say that I prefer to do what my heart tells me, now.

I know the reason why my friends correcting me on that. And thanks for them, I know that they are still care for me, though I dunno how much their cares are. But for me, I’d rather being an atheist who believe in Jesus, and try to do something he wants me to do, or doing God, than bragging around about being a Christian but do nothing. It’s not worth it. And I dun think they should mind it that much. People, please! What do you actually expect??

I remember having one or two friends, they are not Christians. But I once saw a picture of Jesus at the back of one of my friend’s book. And I was quite surprised at that time for as far as I knew, she was not a Christian. So I asked her, and what really shocked me was her answer.

“This guy? Jesus? He’s my idol. I adore him so much.”

I thought I was stunned.

“What? Why?”

“I dunno. His work, maybe, amazes me.”

I never heard anything like that before. Seriously. So I was quite shocked hearing that. But then I learn something. You dun have to be a christian to believe in Jesus, and do what he want. What is actually a christian?

They say Christian is a lifestyle. If it is so, then I can buy that. But more people claim that Christian is a religion, is a belief.

Then what is a religion? Face the reality, people, it’s no more than a status people made to cling to. Jesus did not come in this world thousands years ago to “christianized” people. He came to save them, to died for them. Not to spread christianity. Christianity is a term which appeared firstly in Antioch. And the term exist to call the Christ-follower as “Christians”.

So, who cares about what is others religion if what is more important is what you really believe and what you do with it?

Am I being to skeptic this time?

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4 thoughts on “Wha’s In A STATUS????????

  1. well, i thought i was the only person in this fuckin’ world who expirience this feeling. trnyata kmu jg gtu to bu..

    hmmmm…
    idupku tu sama persis jg ma yg mbok tulis diatas…

    from the church person, turns into an atheist…
    atheist nanggung mungkin lbih tpatnya. soalnya masi percaya Yesus, but not in others way of believing n worshiping…

    ‘But for me, I’d rather being an atheist who believe in Jesus, and try to do something he wants me to do, or doing God, than bragging around about being a Christian but do nothing. It’s not worth it.’ i love the paragraph above…

    overall, u describe your (n my) situation very good!
    ak cukup terwakili n sdikit menemukan pencerahan dari masalahku ini sndiri krna punya tmn yg snasib. LOL!

    1. Hey, Benk! Thanks so much for commenting. FYI, u’ll never ever b alone, Benk. There are thousands of people who share the same thoughts, I believe, including the famous Josh Groban and many other band such as Evanescence. Being agnostic is more precise, I think, rather than d saigang Christian or saigang atheist. Lol. Btw, emangnya wad kinda ‘pencerahan’ dat u found? Anyway, I’m glad it helps! Lol.

      1. Words of the day: ‘Say whatever you wanna say, in the end of the day be somebody that people can look up to!’ Cheers!

  2. hmmm, surprising thought from u ci,
    this is my 1st time reading your blog,
    and i like it
    as u know, i was born in the 2-religions-family
    and it made me not so good in either one of them

    and now i’ve a relationship wif non-catholic too
    it affects my thought about religion

    the main point i get is
    God is universal
    and he is democratic

    the important thing is
    what we make is for a good
    in it’s very subjective

    :)

    thx c dian
    for being my friend
    in a different way to think and talk bout sth
    i know you
    and even though u’re different (my friends think like that) :)
    u’r my weird friend who gives me different side to think

    (kelebaien ga sih???)
    hehehe

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